Connection

Despite the rain, the sun still rises

Despite the rain, the sun still rises.
It was my birthday
6:30 in the morning
and as dark as night.
The pattering of rain
against my window
began during my slumber.

I looked up at the sky
and knew that despite the rain,
the sun will still rise
and that warmed my heart.

My special day wouldn't be
ruined from the dark
from the large puddles
that collected in my driveway.

In the quiet of morning,
I saw mourning doves perched
on the electric wire.
Nowhere to go.
Nowhere to shelter.
Just one with the rain
with the elements 
and they were all okay
despite the rain.

The sun still rises
Even if I can't be
greeted by its warm red
and orange rays.
As the day progressed, 
the dark sky did brighten
to a white marble gray sky.
The sun was still there
If I just remembered.

Despite the rain
I went out to celebrate
with my husband.
at our favorite place for breakfast
and each bite was a true delight.
I marveled at where we were
in this place and time.
How I got here on this special day.
The wisdom, the experience, the love,
the awe, the pain, the lessons
And I, too, was okay
Despite the rain.
self-care

A Million Stars

Whether outside for my daily walk by the river or relaxing by the lake, I bask in the light. If I pause long enough, I see the stars floating and shimmering. A sparkle on the water‘s surface. How I marvel that our sun, too, is a star in its own right. And right here on the still water, the sun is broken into a million stars for all those who gaze upon its reflection. A star right in the middle of the day!

What story does each little flying fireball have? Where is it in its journey as it travels through the galaxy through the great expanse?

It has a life force of its own. A lifecycle of birth and death. Even though the end may be many lifetimes away, as I feel my own ending so far away. My mind can’t fathom an end to my existence.

My smile is bright like its own star. I have a light inside that longs to be bright. Yet afraid to lose too much light, as if there’s a limited supply. My life force too is a cycle and I honor it by appreciating each day as a gift. A wonderful opportunity to learn, to be, to connect, to create.

The world is my oyster who sinks and scurries around at a speed unknown and unseen to the naked eye. The scallop and barnacle have a mystery and story of their own too. The light reflects down to the shallow sea and they marvel and delight in its rays as do I with my bare toes scrunched into the smooth cool sand. I am earthing and unearthing myself like the bird scuttering and flipping over each dead shell on the ground looking for completion.