Connection

I am here. I am present.

When life gets complicated,
When there’s a distraction at every turn
And I feel overwhelmed,
Why add a further layer on top 
of an already full load?

I am here.  I am present.
That’s the only moment that counts.
I can embody that space.

I can feel love, connection, and gratitude
Only when I am in the present moment.

Sometimes I forget what’s so profound and simple.

But I am willing to learn and re-learn
To live this one precious life
In the present moment.

Connection

Greet the Day

I awake each day and darkness greets me.
The morning commuters drive by
And then there are crickets.

I reflect on the polarities of life.
It can be a whirlwind of noise and activity.
It can also be quiet and still.
I welcome and embody the silence.

Either polarity is not a permanent feature of life.
The rollercoaster of ups and downs:
The hard work and effort,
And the gift of glorious ease.

Duality often occurs
in the same time and place.

I know the sun will rise and light will peek through the curtains
by the time my morning ritual is done.
I’m ready to greet the day
Not knowing what’s next to come.




kundalini · working mom · yoga

Becoming a Kundalini yoga teacher

After 15 plus years of wanting to take yoga teacher training, including Kundalini yoga, 
I have stopped saying “no” to myself.

I always thought time and money were a deterrent:  
I couldn’t go away for a month-long teacher training with a full-time job and small kids.  
I couldn’t travel an hour plus several weekends a month for a whole year to train.  

For the last couple of years, I’ve received invitations and advertisements to become a yoga teacher online.  
Still, the timing, the money, and the online course didn’t feel like the right fit.  
And, finally I found the right teacher and the right online course.

Today is one of those days when you know that your life is about to be forever changed.  
I am enrolled in a 200-hour YTT online, six-month kundalini training!

My main intention as a kundalini yoga teacher is to be an inspiration to others.  
By being my authentic self, living my life on my own terms, 
l hope to inspire others on their path.
My past kundalini yoga experiences have always made me feel better, even among the challenges.  
And I want to guide my students to have their own profound healing experiences.

All the pieces of my life have clicked into place so I can fully immerse, embrace, embody and experience this training.  Best of all, I have the support of my husband. He said when I better myself, the whole family benefits.

I’m ready to embark on this life-changing journey!

Connection

Can I accept and allow change into my heart?

When I resist with all my might,
My energy and attention
Can get swept away.
I no longer feel grounded.
I have lost my connection
To mindfulness,
To this present moment.

And it feels like
A contradiction
To my intention
To go with the flow.
Maybe it’s because
I am aware that the
Friction of change
Is so strongly felt.

Of course, I may get
Lost in the struggle,
In the will to be right,
And to brush up against
What I’d like things to be
Versus the reality.

It is a mighty struggle
And one I encounter almost daily.
I am faced with a choice.
Do I paddle upstream
Against the current
And all which is out of my control?

Do I want to expend all that
Wasted energy and effort
At the cost of missing
The present moment,
The only moment that really counts?

This is the flow that I intend to embody.
I won’t always get it right.
I’ll forget and fall into the habit of struggle.
That is the beauty of life.
We are presented with countless opportunities
To wake up, to pause.
And where there is awareness,
Acceptance is possible.
abundance

CARPE DIEM

Life is meant to be enjoyed
And so are our things.

Saving them with the tags still on
Or in a box
Diminishes their value and ours.

I used to think something was too nice
Or too fancy to actually use.
But that’s a fallacy.

To get the most juice, to feel the most alive
Is to embody the present and
Use, wear, or consume our things

Before it expires,
Before fashion trends change,
Before my interests evolve
Or I forget I have it.

So today I light my beautiful new moon
Crystal-infused candle
Because carpe diem.

Connection

THE BODY

The body is a vessel
More than tracks of blood,
Veins, arteries, nerves,
Bone on tendon,
Synovial and cartilage.

It is a vessel that
Forever is learning.
It is not stagnant ever.
It holds my breath
And takes my breath away.

It mobilizes me to action,
To thought, to dream, to create.

The body is a vessel for love.
I can receive and freely give it.
I can hold another’s torso
And their secrets.

I can laugh and cry.
I can release and let go.
I can hold and embody.
Mine can twist and take shape
Intertwine with my lover.

I can stretch and realize
My edges are further than I thought.
I can smile and accept
This body that is mine.



Connection

RELEASE

Release the urge to get it right
Perfection is the joy destroyer.

Release the desire to sound eloquent
To have the right words delivered
At the exact moment.

Release and trust that I will receive
What I’m meant to.

There is no end goal
No finish line
No final product.

We are all works in progress
And there is always room for more:
More edits, for rewrites, to rehashing
And then what’s left?
Hacked up, tattered words
Left on the page.

Torn fragments.
Might as well make confetti
And see where the words land.
That would show perfection.

I don’t have to do it right
Or get it right.
There is no finish line where 
I suddenly become who I’m meant to be.

I am her now.
I embrace and embody her now.
There is no “there” to get to.
I am the joy, the connection,
The creator.

I am the words that you see,
The sounds that you hear.
They are all a part of me
And a part of you too.

Where does creativity come from?
The seed of the soul is my guess.

What seeds are you going to plant today?
What nourishment does your soul desire?
What would you like to plant?

Place them in your palm
And touch the earth.
You are forever supported
And nourished.