Sometimes
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Sometimes

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Sometimes I can block out
the noise, fodder and distraction
and hear that inner voice

who tries to say her lot
always calm and gently
It often disappears under the rumble.

Her voice is rooted in love
and always looking out for my wellbeing

when I stop ruminating, interrupting,
habitually filling the awkward silence,
I free the inner me

out of the cage of silence and past hurt
out of the chamber of iron and thorns
to express utter knowing and passion

when did being authentic become so scandalous?

Where do I find the sacred?
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Where do I find the sacred?

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In the vast big sky 
the clouds march above 
morphing, growing, stretching 
apart at the seams, 
and somehow able to defy gravity

The butterfly flits; 
the busy bee visits with flowers 
cuddles, coils, an intercourse 
in its own merging

The bird soars high above 
amongst the clouds 
envision and flight 
something I can never grasp as my own

So instead, I can appreciate

We are not all that different: 
the trees with their ever-changing leaves; 
the moon’s predictable phases; 
the ocean waves ebb and flow

Each day I find the sacred 
on the earth and in the sky 
I take it all in, and end it all with a sigh
Can I be okay with the silence?
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Can I be okay with the silence?

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I see everyone around me on their phone 
even in the water, they wear it around their neck 
like a noose or a dog leash 

I don’t know 
but I don’t want to live attached to some appendage 
and when it is gone you feel a loss 

you don’t know how to fill in the moments, 
the awkward silence 
a stranger to your own mind 

Inundated with opinions, media, news 
It’s hard to separate the independent voice from the noise
Is there any original thought or has there never been? 

We document our moments 
Hosts of our own lives 
oversharing and blaring 
adding more to the stream of information

I want a reprieve 
a break in the noise 
to be okay in the void that remains

Then I get to decide what to put there: 
a comfortable armchair, pillows, 
a small table for cookies and tea 
a blanket and nook for my book

Here I have room to breathe 

we are wireless beings, 
not meant to be tethered 

we have freedom in the space that remains 
to explore, to listen

We don’t have to post and add to find meaning 

the chaos and noise will always be there 
when we pick up our device

I am the conductor of my life 
and today I choose the breeze, 
the sunshine, even when it is smoky 

I do not have to escape from the present moment 
there is nowhere to go 
Just here and now is all we got

I am grateful for this breath, 
this strong heart that loves and holds
A freedom beats in my chest

My inner light
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My inner light

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My inner light cannot be contained 
in just skin and bone. 

There is a ball of energy 
all around us and beyond us.

Even the tree has its feather tendrils of light 
that sprinkle down and dig deep into the earth.

We share this glorious sky and bright sun. 
Though we are at mercy to mother nature’s fury and grace. 

Out of nowhere the lightning cracks open the tree. 
Did it deserve it? Was it at the wrong place, wrong time?
 
There is no reasonable, acceptable explanation. 
We get knocked off-kilter, off-center

I touch the earth and I am held 

if only just for this moment 
and the next. It is enough.

Mistakes
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Mistakes

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We ruminate a play-by-play of the event 
unable to change the outcome 
it is suffering by our own hand 

we inflict the pain and punishment

Eventually it gets replaced by the next mistake. 
That one takes center stage, 
replaying the part that can never change

Why do we do this to ourselves? 

I believe the mind wants to turn the events over 
and over searching to find the solution 
so we don’t keep making the same mistake.

I am learning to change the script. 

Mistakes make me human. 
They help me to grow and evolve. 
The experiences shape who I am at its core 

I don’t want to avoid, ridicule or shame myself 
for the past. 

Now when I make a mistake, 
I gently say, “Aren’t you incredibly human?”
 
This is the love and acceptance that we long for 

And it was here all along. 
I am grateful for the lessons learned.
Crossroads
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Crossroads

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You find yourself at a crossroads 
there’s a choice you have to make 

transformation lies ahead 
which road do you choose? 
There is life and beauty 
on the road ahead 

it is not dark or foreboding 
all roads lead to home
It’s a dance
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It’s a dance

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Distraction is a part of life 
– internal or external – 

Creative ideas, connection, expression 
are also a part of life

It’s a dance of inspiration, 
balance and authenticity

I embrace the dance
Together Always
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Together Always

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Together always a dance intertwined
Sometimes you take the lead
Sometimes I take the lead

It’s a cosmic dance
We meet and re-unite

The dance floor may change
Our experiences may shift

But our love and presence 
always present 
always here
Seawater Spray
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Seawater Spray

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The seawater spray sends a kiss my way 
It tumbles and roars onto the earth 
with such a gentle touch after a loud turbulence

The waves make smooth curves as they roll onto themselves 
over and over
a never-ending resource of give and receive

They make their way to soft land after a long journey 
and the spray is an exhale like the great humpback whales

the way of love – a poem to Jeff
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the way of love – a poem to Jeff

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the way of love is not peaceful 
when it knocks on your door 
It can take you by surprise 
and knock you off your feet 

your core belief and identity 
can get shaken 

what you thought you knew fades away 
and what you now behold is the only thing that matters

It’s not a small, trivial thing 
when love knocks on the door

sometimes you solicit and put yourself out there 
- so many closed, cold doors it hits you raw - 
sometimes it’s a smile, an invitation, 
a small gesture or a sudden happening

you get your morning coffee 
knowing that there is someone you plan to meet 
that just might change the trajectory of your life 
and it’s not a small moment, because it ripples out 
shaping all future time and space

the way of love is not quiet 
it burns deep, warm at first 
but passionate and raw 

your exposed vulnerable heart 
aches to not be hurt, 
just be loved as much as it is to give

the way of love is as unique as your fingerprint 
it is not a predictable journey with marked paths. 
It’s the great mystery. It’s the juice that makes life 
worth living and to share these moments 
with another is a cherished gift

so when the way of love knocks on your door, 
greet it in. Offer it an ear, an embrace
love is not to be squandered or stowed away
love is there in the air to share, 
to embody spirit in pure joy

love what may come, but don’t chase it away 
just when the vulnerable wings appear 
on the threshold, you will find the strength to 
uplift and transform on a journey to the way of love

[ Today I am celebrating 16 wonderful years of marriage to my loving husband Jeff ]