Have Patience

Have Patience
I told myself
Over and over again.
I knew the advice was sound
But I was so impatient!

And lonely.  I was tired
And fed up with being alone,
of not finding a connection
of not finding “The One.”

Have Patience
As the old advice goes.
I thought I could rush the process
Get to the finish line
Without doing the necessary work.

What I didn’t know was
It was all divine timing.
Even though in the messy middle,
I couldn’t find the lifeline.
My desires seemed just out of reach.
I needed a helping hand, a boost.

It was a hard narrow space
And I felt stuck.
The vault to my heart
was locked and well-guarded.
I didn’t want to be vulnerable,
to be open to being hurt again.

What I now know is
Where there is vulnerability,
There is an opening,
A softening
to receive love.
There I will find strength.

If I can’t be vulnerable
With the one I love,
The relationship is not authentic.
The foundation is fragile and loose.

Once I found I could be vulnerable
With another, I found safety 
In letting down my guard
And it was strength, not a weakness.
That it was true connection,
True intimacy.
And I finally found my loving partner.