Right now I know this
Despite the sorrow and the fear
– or in spite of sorrow and the fear –
Now is all there is
Often it is not front and center
with a proper view of what This is
Sometimes I think I can find it
and Embody this now that is
I return to my center
no longer lost in the tumultuous thoughts,
strings of notions and ideas
whether original or not
That weighs heavy on my mind
I just let it go
And I can feel the now
Glimpses of gladness arrive
My heart feels the light
there’s Goodness, nourishment
Rooted in the here and now.
Tag: sorrow
The Buffet of Depression
A sampling of insomnia.
A heapful of hopelessness.
A bottomless cup of guilt.
A dash of a fleeting suicidal thought.
A serving of no future excitement.
A boatload of rumination
and feeling trapped in my thoughts
like wandering in a maze
not sure if it’s a dead end, mousetrap
or if the escape route is
right around the corner.
Irritation and anger.
Lots of sadness
And easily prone to tears.
It’s hard to smile.
It feels like this heaviness,
This sad sorrow is all there is
All that there ever was
And all that will ever be.
And then the cycle repeats.
Another new day.
Another visit to the buffet.
[ If you are feeling overwhelmed or just need someone to talk to, dial 988 for the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline; contact your healthcare provider; dial the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration’s National Helpline at 1‑800‑662‑HELP or visit https://www.samhsa.gov/find-support/health-care-or-support or https://988lifeline.org/talk-to-someone-now/ ]
I come from there
I come from there. Far over the edge where the sky meets the earth. The trees line the horizon With never ending evergreen. I come from there. The warm grass with little crawling insects. A green soft blanket underfoot. I come from there. Where salty air cools my skin and fills my lungs with care. I come from there. Far over the edge where the sea spreads out to a flat horizon whose edges knows no bounds. I come from there Where rain melds and becomes my tears tears of joy tears of sorrow nourishment and sustenance. I feel and appreciate it all. I come from there. Where home greets me at the door. A warm embrace. A quick burst of chatter about the day. We are welcome. We are loved. We belong And call this our forever home. I come from there. The lovers embrace. The calm after the storm. The seed of potential. The green light of love. The sparkling emerald of my heart. I come from there. I just know in my bones. There was no lesson. No guidebook or post to mark my path. The landscape was laid out before me. Welcomed me with a warm embrace. Sunshine on my face. Sustenance to survive. Laughter, joy and connection to make it all worthwhile. Mine all mine. My story. My experience. My joy and sorrow. I come from there. The edge. The sea. The air. The sky. The grass. The rain. And I am welcomed home to mother earth greeted by a new day and embraced by the moon each night I come from there. The loving world and welcomed embrace
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