I don’t remember being born
or how I came to be.
I arrived and here I am.
I don’t remember the
very early years,
So dependent on my mom.
Her love, her safety
The spaces we occupied.
My first memory I remember
is when I was two.
My siblings and I were playing
with a plastic toy house.
My uncle blew cigarette smoke
through the second-story windows.
It was such a delight
to see the shape, the form
the floating vapors
that defied gravity.
I remember winters of
sledding down the hill
in the backyard
on my mom’s childhood
Flying Arrow sled.
The joy and momentum
of the downhill slope.
I remember our swing set
with metal frames and
hard plastic seats
that brought me to far away
places only in my mind.
I remember learning to
roller skate for the first time.
Clinging to the side wall
as I found my balance,
my courage, and eventually
my confidence to skate
on my own with grace
There are so many
moments that I may
But the ones I do
And they connect me
to my siblings and
stand the test of time
as they shaped and formed
who I am today.
Remember the scent of the lilacs.
How the air just embodied their aroma
and drifted it into the windows
into my lungs.
Remember when they were teeny tiny buds.
How 5-year old Lilly marveled at their small size.
Little purple bumps bursting from the green.
Remember the Easter lilies
and this was the first year
I got so low to the ground
I could actually smell them for the first time.
Remember the towering orange iris.
Remember the hearty rosebush.
Remember the mimosa tree that
once stood proud, colorful and fragrant.
Now an empty shell.
The weakened trunk sways with a gentle push.
Remember the dogwood’s white blossoms
and Lilly called the neighbor’s pink blossoms
“flower snow” as they fell
and covered the ground in small piles of soft pink.
Remember the woodpecker, the cardinal,
the new birds that decided to stop by for a visit.
Remember the bunny rabbit, like Old Faithful,
arrives around dinner time
looking for her evening meal as well.
Remember the hawk perched on top
of the playset as a squirrel huddled
and hid under the child’s chair
unmoving and the hawk ever patient.
Remember the blue jays that harassed
and chased that hawk away
and the squirrel that timidly crawled
commando style and lived another day.
Remember the sweet breeze from the ocean
even reaching here not so close to the shore
and how I marveled at the salty refreshing air.
Remember the first kiss.
The special rock overlooking the bay
and our life began together.
Remember that tender beginning love
is still here under the surface.
A beloved memory but always here in my heart.